my lifestyle shhhhh lesson one

 many of you have inquired as to my lifestyle. you want more, perhaps, than I reveal in these pages. but in these pages I reveal alot if you know what you are looking for. in general I'm not a fan of sharing. mystery holds power. but I'm bored and not captalizing the beginning words of sentences also losing luster. 

my fabulous life. all the little daily pleasures. candies for the hours. first you have to place stars in your eyes. i'm not kidding, it's number one for a reason. a foundation for what's to come. attitude. everyone's star is different because everyone is different. what the stars in your eyes shield you from is powerful. you need a shield sometimes because part of life is acknowledging your basic helplessness in so much of it. there will be things you see, hear, feel, smell, taste, intuit and know that you shrink from, that you hate, that you wish you never saw. use your stars to blithly shine them out. accept that they are there and forget them. awareness and acceptance.

say it again: awareness, acceptance, attitude. remember those, in the powerful weapon category

i would suggest an attitude of gratitude you find your angle, but positivity is powerful.

Pperhaps I'll break right now and think about how much I'm going to present here. i don't want a fucking to to list of course but the logical next step is what are the things you want the stars in your eyes to shine on, to illuminate for you. 

Coquette

  There is a trend - if you google coquette - that is not what I'm referring to here. Flirtatious, romantic, cunning, slyly using feminine wiles to persuade...... not bad things I guess, but, again, I'm not on the social media trend train andthis isn't my thing. 

I'm referring to a woman who engages in self care. Daily, weekly, always! A very French Secret! The coquette woman. Indulges in skin care, manicures, haircare as a way of life. What a delicious secret.

So here's my Tuesday ritual a la coquette.

Some lovely stretching, a hot sauna and some cold rinses, a gorgeous shower exfoliating etc. Enjoying the application of super luscious lotion afterward and drying my hair with my latest (big) indulgence my dyson. I love how my hair looks so it's worth it. And then it's time to prepare for my ballet class, some stretches of my feet and legs as I dress for it. I love my weekly ballet class, it's imperative for my posture at this point!

No guilt! That is imperative as well!!

xo

what now for me

 well today I've felt a weird internal individual energy. one that wants to be independent of the external, different from usual

not one seeking anying any mantle or grace from any corner but one that is mine.

it is notable that a surge of personal power has emerged on this dark day

a primal backlash 

Sweet Designs Chocolate Ha ha ha

 2 years since I've written!! What compels such action? Sea parted? Writer's block, cleared? An omg feeling that I need the accountability of dates otherwise I lose them? So baby I'm back.

With a tres moi reason. I'd like to rant about Sweet Designs being closed Jan 1 -10 which is just absurd. Where am I to go. What am I to do? There is no answer. 

So I went to Heinens. Handy and I needed whipped cream (remind me about my apple crisp:old school recipe) .After walking around their "bakery", deciding that a yummy coffee cake sounded like it would do but of course finding nothing!! and feeling like a weirdo cause I ended up looking at everything and I'm sure the look on my face was nice. But I did find, tucked in the brownie case, a very tasty brownie/caramel/cookie dough layered bar. And I ate it with tea, quite hit the spot.

BUT back to the dearth of good chocolate and the need for everyone to stock up! Now there is a thing called damp January and if you're doing any of those alcohol things you can probably do it but you'll need tea and good sweets. Everyday I think of driving over the bridge to Lakewood and it's a few days yet till Sweet Designs (a most european thing in my neighborhood) reopens. Try the nut patty. Either cashew, pecan or almond, dark or milk chocolate, caramel. It's all you need really because right there all you math majors can tell me how many variations you can indulge in. Six, I think. Ok the toffee and brittle are smashing as well.